I have this problem of being overwhelmed and not knowing where to start so I just don’t start. As a parent, I struggle with protecting my children from the harsh ways of our world or showing them, so that they are aware. There is so much suffering in this world. My heart aches for so many of God’s children. I have a strong desire to help orphans, to rescue those in war torn countries, those who do not have clean water to drink or food to eat, those who are abused. I want to share the gospel with those who have never heard it. I have felt so hopeless over the last several months. So much hurt and suffering and I am just one person. How do I make a difference? The truth is we can ALL make a difference. I’m so glad that God has laid these things on my heart. I’m so glad to be a part of a church family that is helping me be able to make a difference and encouraging me in things I am doing.
I think because I had turned away from God for so long that now I feel like I’m dehydrated and I can’t get enough of him, of his word, of really living for him. I pray every day that my husband will share that same passion with me. I want to be able to live by example for my children and not just “talk the talk.” I get so mad at myself sometimes when I look back and wonder “What was I thinking?” Seriously, “Why would I ever think my way is better than his way?” It’s taking a lot of praying to really let go of some guilt and frustration that I had over things I have done in my life. Thank God he is so forgiving and loving!